Wow feel so bad.. told my friend that we weren't going to ride cuz it was going to rain.. and its warm and sunny in January.. what the heck.. LIKE usually its in the 30s.. VERY FRIGID!! Anyway.. NATE is working right now, and I just feel plain guilty to get outside when everybody I know is working. I put Sophy outside to enjoy some sun.. so there is somebody enjoying it. WELL Tour de hills is coming up..(my hometown race/ride) I am not going to race or ride it. They have to have eight officials for it be run this year. Last year we had like two... or something like that. Its a big course with dangerous roads so I sort of understand. Everybody wants to ride/race it so I have decided to volunteer myself to be an official for the race. I kind of have an idea what they do sort of. CROSS THE YELLOW LINE OUTTA THERE.. j/k but they do that haha! Also have to hit Tulsa this Saturday to go through a seminar to become one I guess. Not really what I wanted to do, but its something different.. maybe I can be an official for the women. As long as I am involved I'm good.. SERIOUSLY I just got engaged its nice knowing you're not going down the isle with some road rash on your face.. even though that would be hardcore. Still planning to race this year though. I am just going to be with my local club this year Buffalo River Cyclists. WHY? Because its my local team first off. Secondly, I have no opportunity with any other team, I do not have any awesome results yet.. I'm ridiculous I guess.... and I'm slow haha! I do know one thing is that I have fun and to me that is all that matters and what is meant to be will happen. I loved Vanderkitten, but something told me to do something else. I'm looking forward to moving forward with my life and settling down with Nate and his two ridiculous dogs. Went to Dairy Queen yesterday cuz it opened back up after the fire.. with Kabuki, Nate's pit bull mix we rescued, and she was so excited she got stuck between the back seat and the ceiling of my car trying to smell the food. Love her...
One thing .. its so easy to talk about somebody or judge. SO easy to be mean or not nice to somebody you don't care for. So easy to talk about somebody if somebody else is doing it that you know. Its really a waste of time and energy. I noticed myself lately being very defensive more than usual and decided to just let it all go. Sounds like a therapy sesh right now, but I have been doing this for the past two weeks and like I duno what made me change or what, but I'm a better person now and I just think differently. Getting older and realizing the world isn't rooting for you, but wants you there..
Watching the earthquake in Haiti really made me realize how bad some people have it. Like I just started balling when I realized how pathetic I was to be worried or upset over stupid stuff and that I needed to change even more. I'm very lucky to have what I have and to be alive with loving caring people around me. God is always there...even for the people in Haiti. Just always good to go with what you feel inside, and live life happy :) Anyway I'm going back to sleep stayed up too late last night haha!
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